another beautiful day???
it looks like my project at work is still on hold, so i am (knock on wood) planning on going for a run today at lunch. last time was SO fantastic...i hope I can have a great run again!
so this weekend was my birthday...23 years old. YIKES. it feels weird...i feel like i am still young, definitely still getting my life together...but then i have friends who are getting married within the next year. that really freaks me out. my boyfriend and i spent saturday together..it was a wonderful day. he took me wine tasting in napa and it was great. i don't know what to do about him...we have been dating for three years, but there are things about each other that are just not compatible. mainly, i tend to be blunt and kind of mean sometimes and he is REALLY sensitive about everything. soo that doesn't really go over so well. he is SO understanding of everyone on the earth's situation...which is great, but sometimes i want him to just be like "wow, that girl did that to you? that is so mean!" but he would never say that...he would want me to understand her perspectice, etc. sounds great, right? well, he would make a great dad and i'm sure a great husband...i just don't know if i can stand it!! anyway, so i don't know what to do...do i break up with him? do i keep dating him, and eventually get married knowing that part of my personality totally clashes with his? i have no idea. he loves me and wants to stay with me...that leaves the ball in my court. great.
on a totally separate note, i realized over the weekend while eating and wine tasting in napa that i love good food. pure and simple. i just love it. since it was my birthday, i didn't think about how many calories were in anything, i really just ate what i wanted when i wanted. there were so many different foods...sweet, savory, alcoholic ;P i think that's why i became overweight in the first place, and why i struggle with losing weight (well, more like maintaining my loss) now. i love trying new foods, i love different flavors, i love to cook, i love to bake...really, need i go on? as opposed to repressing this love (as i think i have been doing for a long time since moving into my own place and acquiring my own kitchen), i am going to try as much as i can to put more time into actually cooking and creating my own food, and less on worrying about keeping myself full. does that make any sense? instead of just jamming some pretzels into my mouth when i get home from work and counting that as my 200 calorie snack, i could make some tabouleh and save the leftovers for lunch the next day. same amount of calories, but higher quality of food. hmm...we'll see how this goes.
so this weekend was my birthday...23 years old. YIKES. it feels weird...i feel like i am still young, definitely still getting my life together...but then i have friends who are getting married within the next year. that really freaks me out. my boyfriend and i spent saturday together..it was a wonderful day. he took me wine tasting in napa and it was great. i don't know what to do about him...we have been dating for three years, but there are things about each other that are just not compatible. mainly, i tend to be blunt and kind of mean sometimes and he is REALLY sensitive about everything. soo that doesn't really go over so well. he is SO understanding of everyone on the earth's situation...which is great, but sometimes i want him to just be like "wow, that girl did that to you? that is so mean!" but he would never say that...he would want me to understand her perspectice, etc. sounds great, right? well, he would make a great dad and i'm sure a great husband...i just don't know if i can stand it!! anyway, so i don't know what to do...do i break up with him? do i keep dating him, and eventually get married knowing that part of my personality totally clashes with his? i have no idea. he loves me and wants to stay with me...that leaves the ball in my court. great.
on a totally separate note, i realized over the weekend while eating and wine tasting in napa that i love good food. pure and simple. i just love it. since it was my birthday, i didn't think about how many calories were in anything, i really just ate what i wanted when i wanted. there were so many different foods...sweet, savory, alcoholic ;P i think that's why i became overweight in the first place, and why i struggle with losing weight (well, more like maintaining my loss) now. i love trying new foods, i love different flavors, i love to cook, i love to bake...really, need i go on? as opposed to repressing this love (as i think i have been doing for a long time since moving into my own place and acquiring my own kitchen), i am going to try as much as i can to put more time into actually cooking and creating my own food, and less on worrying about keeping myself full. does that make any sense? instead of just jamming some pretzels into my mouth when i get home from work and counting that as my 200 calorie snack, i could make some tabouleh and save the leftovers for lunch the next day. same amount of calories, but higher quality of food. hmm...we'll see how this goes.
posted by michelle @ 10:41 AM
1 Comments:
At 1:51 PM,
Stephanie said…
Not to be brash about it but if you have to ask if he is the *one* for you - he probably isn't. Just from one girl to another...but no one says you guys can't fate and enjoy each others company...your still young chica.
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