i just keep gaining this week :(

sigh. i weighed in on wednesday at my all time low weight in life (that i can remember anyway). since then, i've just been gaining. wednesday, i went out to lunch and had dessert. yesterday, i had about 5 mini hershey's bars that i definitely didn't need. today my work catered breakfast and i had a quiche. that was probably 1,000 calories easy. at least i only had half. do you ever feel like the world is working against your weight loss goals? i know its obviously not the world, but myself, that's keeping me from losing. this weekend i wanted to get lots of exercise in, but unfortunately i'm still feeling a bit under the weather. is it bad to look ahead to my weekend and not plan on eating anything? not that that will actually happen, but that's how i wish it would go. i wish i could just get through a day without food, just enjoying life and doing lots of stuff. wow, that's kind of a scary thought...scary that i just thought that i mean. alas, that's the way it is. this weekend all i want to do is go out for my birthday, get drunk, and lose weight. is that too much to ask?