skinny can't buy you happiness

they always say money can't buy you love, but can skinniness?
i broke up with my boyfriend of three years yesterday. it was kind of mutual...more me telling him that i need more from our relationship, and him saying that he can't provide it. is that mutual? i don't really know. i don't know what i am going to do without him. i mean, after three years...he was basically my life. i don't feel like doing anything, i don't want to workout, i don't want to eat, i don't want to move. i just want to sit here like a lump in front of my computer at work and just go through the movements, not thinking, not attempting to do anything that will let my mind wander. if i stop, i think about the last time we slept in the same bed, how i can't believe that's the last time i'll ever be in his arms, the last time i kissed him good bye. i weighed in this morning at 139.0, one pound from goal. and i don't give a flying fuck.