feeling a little better...
my last post was so depressing...yikes. i'm feeling a little better now...my roomate is back from vacation so we've been hanging out a lot the past few days. i still haven't been able to get control of my eating, though. something someone posted on 3FC today made me start thinking that i might have a problem..
i know i've been really down the past couple of months, just post-breakup stuff. but when i think about how i've been eating, it's really bizarre. like, i'll go a week basically eating only enough to get by (i do this a lot on the weekends too). i avoid meals when at all possible...if i reaaally want to see a friend and they ask me to dinner i'll go, but i don't go without worrying about gaining weight. then other times, i totally binge. generally i dont' binge on these types of scraping by days unless i get home from drinking and the drunchies ensue. other times though (like the past two weeks) i just shove anything into my mouth. what is going on with me? i just want to get back on my regular schedule. i've never been a perfectionist with eating by far, but never this bizarre. could i be depressed? i sure feel like it sometimes. then sometimes i feel ok...i don't know. scary thought..
i know i've been really down the past couple of months, just post-breakup stuff. but when i think about how i've been eating, it's really bizarre. like, i'll go a week basically eating only enough to get by (i do this a lot on the weekends too). i avoid meals when at all possible...if i reaaally want to see a friend and they ask me to dinner i'll go, but i don't go without worrying about gaining weight. then other times, i totally binge. generally i dont' binge on these types of scraping by days unless i get home from drinking and the drunchies ensue. other times though (like the past two weeks) i just shove anything into my mouth. what is going on with me? i just want to get back on my regular schedule. i've never been a perfectionist with eating by far, but never this bizarre. could i be depressed? i sure feel like it sometimes. then sometimes i feel ok...i don't know. scary thought..
posted by michelle @ 11:29 AM
2 Comments:
At 6:44 PM,
Stephanie said…
I've so been feeling this way lately! I don't know what's wrong with me. It's kind of comforting to know that others go through this as well. I'm sure that we'll both be getting out of this funk soon!!!
At 6:17 AM,
Anonymous said…
I go through this to. Of course, I am a binger (it got me to where I was). And you don't lose it overnight, but time has taught me to work through it and recognize it. Sometimes I can thwart it, sometimes I can't. It really is connected to how I'm feeling and I can't believe it took me SO LONG to figure it out! I guess that's why conistency is such a big word in my vocabulary.
So no, you most def are not alone and that post got me thinking as well.
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