Tired of the Same Old Routine
...The routine of binge eating, eating stuff I don't need to eat, etc.
When I read my past entries, it seems like nothing's changed. I still binge eat often without reason..at work in the afternoon, at home when I'm bored, after I get home from the bars...I am so tired of it. I weighed in this morning at 148.2...That's so much..I just feel uncomfortable at this weight, not like myself. The past three days have been especially bad (Thurs, Fri, Sat). Totally out of control, just eating anything not nailed down basically. I read a quote I posted a while ago about starting today to change the rest of my life. I am seriously so tired of living like this, always beating myself up for eating crap. So today is it - I have done this before (changed my life on a dime) when I first started losing weight. I also just found out that I'm not going to be traveling for work anymore starting in September (!), and I am so ready for it. Ready to get back to being home and not being surrounded by food all the time. It's going to be great :)
When I read my past entries, it seems like nothing's changed. I still binge eat often without reason..at work in the afternoon, at home when I'm bored, after I get home from the bars...I am so tired of it. I weighed in this morning at 148.2...That's so much..I just feel uncomfortable at this weight, not like myself. The past three days have been especially bad (Thurs, Fri, Sat). Totally out of control, just eating anything not nailed down basically. I read a quote I posted a while ago about starting today to change the rest of my life. I am seriously so tired of living like this, always beating myself up for eating crap. So today is it - I have done this before (changed my life on a dime) when I first started losing weight. I also just found out that I'm not going to be traveling for work anymore starting in September (!), and I am so ready for it. Ready to get back to being home and not being surrounded by food all the time. It's going to be great :)
posted by michelle @ 10:05 AM
1 Comments:
At 10:04 PM,
Miss said…
I think we ALL get like this! I know I do! :) What bothers me the most is that I write a few entries when I am really down and out and complain that I let myself get this way. Suprise suprise... 2 months later I look back at that and I still feel the same! What a waste of energy! It could have been used on actually bettering myself in that 2 month span! ha
I think what you are surrounded with has a lot to do with it as well. Like you said you are traveling with your job and how excited you are about changing this habit... maybe this is the breakthrough you need. Change should be a positive outlook, although very hard at times.
Wow, am I just rambling or what! This post in particular really hit me inside because I go through the same emotions. It will get better... just you wait and see! ;)
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