Frustrated

I wonder how many times I've used that as a title for my blog? I think that pretty much summarizes my life these days. I weighed in this morning at 148, up 2 pounds from the weekend. I'm not too sure why - maybe water weight since I ate out last night? I am really frustrated with myself..sometimes I feel like I have no control over my eating. I did a good job last night at dinner (for the most part)..had a couple of fried appetizers, but didn't stuff my face, and then had meat and a few potatoes for dinner. Then when I got home, I was CRAVING ice cream even though I wasn't hungry. Why can't I just come home and go to bed? Instead, I ended up having some frozen yogurt, even though I wasn't hungry, and a handful of chocolate chips. Sometimes I don't know what's wrong with me.

Reunited and it feels so good...

Reunited with two of my most favorite things - 3FC and my blog :) I have been living the past six months, working, traveling, really just putting myself out there and doing whatever comes along. It's been great...except for the fact that I've gained ten pounds and have to fit into a bridesmaids dress in three months!! When I got the dress a few weeks ago and zipped it up...well, that was a wake up call. And really, I know that I look no different (mostly) now than I did six pounds ago when I felt really great about myself. It's all in my head (and maybe a few pounds that are making that dress a little snug). It's not really all about losing weight..I just want to get back into my routine. This is so hard when I'm on the road for work, but I know I can make it happen. I just want to eat like a normal person, not binge eat, not eat chocolate to resolve boredom/sorrows, etc. Is that so much to ask?? I really weigh ten pounds more now than in Augst because I'm HAPPY...for the most part, anyway! No more crying, being depressed, all that kind of stuff. I like to think of them as happy pounds :) Happy pounds that I am ready to be done with before I get into a bathing suit, however! I am going to get in a much better habit of posting on here and on 3FC so that I can lose a few pounds in the next month (maybe 3 or 4?) before one wedding, and another couple before the next wedding. I think those are small goals that I can definitely attain :)